ericwoke up early again yesterday and rode bicycle 5 miles to other end of hole. there was a light rain when i left which turned into a heavy fall on the way back. it felt like i fell into a lake's volume of water which was distributed across time. it was neither good nor bad. i stopped under the awning of a gutted walgreens for a moment to rearrange the contents of my pockets. lately being alive feels like this most of the time. avoiding secret potholes in the flooding to avoid being splashed when already fully soaked through, being momentarily, ambiently conscious about one or other half of a binary condition, with sudden swells of frustration or resignation, frustration of having to resign, enjoyment, banality, enjoyment in banality, no longer entertaining the possibility of the sublime, questioning its existence and the structural positing of it within the canon of reality
ericthe need arises to be somewhere else and the need arises
ericthe mini-internets consist of all people found in the world holes, which are maybe 4-5 people max
erici live in a hole in the world, it is multilayered, there's a surface that i cannot reach, its existence is enough to calm me, there are multiple mini-internets, i only exist on one mini-internet, i keep an unassuming photoblog about general interests, bike rides, flowers, etc. of things that used to exist, an unaesthetic image collection of things for example a 3/4ths view of the entrance to the building that houses the museum of obsolete anxieties and other hobbies owned by the company that manufactures anxieties and hobbies, a photo of a glass of beer at a bar with a friend, the architectural engineering of a normal bridge i walk across to get to the other side of my hole in the world, various consumer electronics, clothing, and auto parts photographed in a way that looks like ebay but i'm not selling them
saltflaatcasual indifference splintered by light where were you when the sun died?
ericattempt to resolder a broken flex cable
jbtoo much to myself and not enough to anyone else